owwwwwwwwww

Five bruises, scraped wrist and hand, and a backache. My body officially hates me.

four days

It's going to take me all of four days to break my "Ohh I'm not drinking til May 6th" thing. Way to go, me.

creams and lotions

Sorry if I told you I would be staying in Clemson this summer to work with GE. I changed my mind at the last minute, and I'll be working with Coty instead. I'd like to call it a "cream production" job.
Check them out: http://www.coty.com
I'll be in and out of Clemson for sure, so we can all still hang out. I mean, what can there possibly be to do in Sanford, NC?

where is my motivation?

How come it doesn't seem to affect me that I have a huge presentation and paper due on Thursday on a subject I haven't finished researching? Why am I not concerned that I have homework assignments due in two other Thursday classes that I haven't started? What keeps me from being stressed about the fact that I have to tear up all my finals to get the grades I want? How come I can run on 3-6 hours of sleep a night all weekend long, but as soon as the weekdays come, I get cranky and sleepy on days after 8 hours of sleep? Most importantly, why did I spend only 30 minutes working on all these assignments last night before calling it quits as compared to the hours I spent discussing manliness and lesbian vests?

32 random things about me

(stolen from the old website, just making sure the list keeps growing)
1) I bruise easily (some may say as easily as a tomato, others a banana... but we all know the tomato is right).
2) I don't think female names are appropriate for males (i.e. Ashley, Kelly).
3) I love bad movies.
4) I get embarrassed for the actors in bad movies/tv shows (ex. the Hot Sundae video in Saved by the Bell).
5) I don't follow the motto "work hard, play hard". I'm more of a "work moderately, play moderately" kind of girl.
6) I laugh out loud at the tv when I'm alone.
7) I don't like or dislike watermelon.
8) I have a rule for myself that I'm not allowed to buy any more lipgloss, but I violate it about every month.
9) If I've got my door locked when I'm at the apartment, there's a 100% chance that I am not wearing pants.
10) I don't like it when people stop liking or like bands less they once loved just because they became popular.
11) I'm the best person to order a pizza with because even if you want anchovies, pineapple, and garlic all on the same pizza, I'm right there with you.
12) I'm scared of losing my teeth.
13) I can only speak enough Chinese to look like a fool.
14) I know how to play the piano, flute, and violin; I just choose not to.
15) My eyes swell up to the point where I almost can't open them if I've been crying.
16) I don't get the Asian flush.
17) I hate it when people hang up on me.
18) I got my belly button pierced on my 18th birthday (makes you kind of feel foolish if you didn't know that since it's been three years).
19) I couldn't ever finish a 12oz soda until I started drinking beer.
20) I could easily go six weeks without washing any underpants, even considering that I change them twice a day.
21) I suck at swimming, if you could even call what I do swimming.
22) My parents have Chinese nicknames for me that are equivalent to "fatso", "pig meat", "fatty", and any other synonyms of "fat".
23) I almost got expelled in high school for lynching.
24) I hate driving, but driving calms me down when I'm upset.
25) I get really chatty when I'm nervous (to the point where I called a lab tech at my doctor's office a liar because she told me it wouldn't hurt when she pricked my finger).
26) I eat amazingly, incredibly slow.
27) I wake up around 8-10am if I'm hung over regardless of what time I went to bed.
28) I love flossing my teeth.
29) Check out my right ear next time you see me. If you don't notice what is weird, look at my left ear and then go back to the right one. (I'm not talking freak show here, but you might want to see what's up.)
30) If I pick on you, it's only cause I like you. (Don't let me go overboard though.)
31) I trust people too easily sometimes.
32) I rarely sweat.

no more alcohol til may 6

It's a good thing I had an awesome weekend because this is the last time I'll have alcohol in my body until May 6. That doesn't sound like a long time at all, but if you consider the fact that 4 of the last 6 nights, I've been drunk, you realize... that I'm an alcoholic. It's definitely time to cut down. Not to mention exams are in a week.

This weekend included: hanging out at the Joint, downtown ridiculousness, long, hilarious conversations, Mean Girls, ASA picnic (amazing food, by the way), story time over a Whopper that took me 2 hours to eat, TIGEROAR, crazy drinking games (Malibu straight... umm), and TWO trips to the Waffle House.

funny

I just remembered one of the funniest things said to me last night: "You can just tell she's a bitch cause she has really overplucked eyebrows. I mean, come on!"

tonight

Tonight was hilarious.

bad day to be my pants

Today, I got the following items on my pants: spaghetti sauce, mayonnaise, berry kiwi juice, and a pickle.

breaks

I've been cut a lot of breaks lately, and I'm starting to get paranoid that it's going to come back and ruin everything.

First of all, going downtown Friday night turned out to be a great idea. Big breaks.

Then, I thought I was screwed on my circuits final since I haven't wired anything all semester, but it turned out okay I think. At first, I thought I was going to die cause I couldn't even set the voltage. I asked the TA for some help, and he threatened to take 5 points off my grade. Luckily, the equipment was faulty, so there was another break. Then, I was really nervous about the oscilloscope wiring, but apparently it's like second nature to me.

Today in my honors class, the professor came up to ask the guy next to me if he was going to present his project on Tuesday, like he had confirmed with me last week. Then, he looks at me and says, "Did we say Tuesday or Thursday for you?" I was thinking I should probably just say Tuesday, but I knew I'd hate myself later for it, so I said, "Can we do Thursday instead?" Two day extension, for no reason.

I guess all of this has been balanced out just a little bit.

After I got that two day extension, I looked to the guy next to me and giggled, and he says, "That's so going to bite you in the ass later." I laughed cause I knew it would, but this project is going to be killer. The professor decides to change it up today and randomly starts selecting people to put the homework on the board. I look at the guy next to me, and of course, cause I have a big fat mouth, I say, "I hope he picks you!! Haha..." Yeah, he picked me. I have no clue what's going on in that class. It was the most awkward scene ever. I tried three times to get out of it: "Uhhh.. is this the right theory?" "Iiiiii don't think I put the Ay component in..." "Iii... uhh... but... ummmm...." Yeah. Definitely thought about running out of the room Hegarty-Yoohoo style.

Secondly, I have a test in the afore mentioned class, Thursday.

Also, I'm pretty sure I won't exempt an exam that basically everyone is exempting. Oops...

Finally, the tread on my tire has worn so thin because of my bad alignment that you can see the wire mesh. Hopefully I can get that fixed tomorrow...

Anyway, I'm keeping my fingers crossed that everything keeps going well.

I think I make the same face whenever I'm drunk 

Dan's 21st!

This guy on the far right was a champ and had somewhere around 25 drinks on his 21st. Then he bought a King Cobra.

people who shouldn't be allowed to be 21

-Amy Hsu

weekends in april

Things that make me happy include: laying out in the sun, bonding with people over mutual adoration of tequila, crazy coincidences, drunk dials and early AM calls, hanging out with old friends and new people, drinking 40s, celebrating birthdays, watching Angel get hit on by 30 year old men that top out at 5'1", eating at the Waffle House, receiving (and very loosely giving) piggy back rides, eating BEEZERS while drunk, and finding out my parents bought a tandem kayak.
.........all of which happened this weekend!

Can't wait til next weekend...

twice

In the past week, I've gotten water up my nose while taking a shower... twice.

Angel hits up Clemson

It's been an exhausting couple of days. Thursday night, I drove up to Wake Forest to meet up with Angel and my parents before heading to Sanford for my interview with Coty. The interview was really awesome; all the people are really great and you know me, I love creams and lotions so therefore I'd love to work for Coty. They even gave me the option of choosing any of their products to take home with me... I took J.Lo Glow. Don't be jealous. (Seriously, don't be jealous: it don't smell too nice).

So Friday I had a really great 4 hour drive home, and I was so tired because I got up at 6:45am. Angel said she was coming to town Friday night, so I figured we'd just go downtown and see what happens. Man, good times. I told Angel all she has to do is go downtown with me, and she'll definitely see people she knows. And she did.. of course... awesome.

Ajay and his 21 shots 

21st

happy birthday ajay!!!

teeth, again

I was driving around listening to the radio, and this commercial for Hardees came on. Like the rest of the commercials, it's just a monologue, but this time it was a kid with a significant lisp. He starts to talking and eventually explains that he lost his tooth on a burger. Okay, that definitely needs to be taken off the radio because it is disturbing and obscene. Thanks.

relationships

From the time I was little, one thing I've always loved is having a defined group of good friends. In elementary school, there was a group of four of us girls who got along really well. We traded stickers, had sleepovers, and shared secrets. When I switched to public school in the 6th grade, things were kind of rocky for a little bit because everyone was new to me. I eventually found this group of about eight who loved spending time together. The girls even had a "notebook" (you know you had one) to keep each other up to date. By high school, some of the people moved in different directions, but it's all natural when some kids try to grow up too fast and some kids never figure out how to. Some of us changed, more people came in, but by the end of high school, I had found two amazing friends who I love, and we had an awesome group of people we frequently hung out with. In college, I made the mistake that everyone tells you to avoid freshman year, and that was dating someone as soon as the opportunity came up. And then when that ended, I dated someone else. Even still, I got to know a lot of good people over the past couple of years, and I felt like things would follow in the pattern that my life has always taken. But now, in my junior year of college, I can honestly say that I've never had a group of friends so irreverent of each other. Maybe a lot of the pain didn't involve me, but if someone's got the capacity to hurt someone they care about, they can do it to me too. So stop hurting each other, stop trying to form "sides", stop causing drama when it shouldn't even exist. Find new people so that this group doesn't become entirely too incestuous. I'm done guys.

quickie before lab

Two cool things about today:
I've been kind of TOed lately cause I just now realize how much my current schedule sucks. It's really great cause I get the option of sleeping in most days, but since I don't get out of class until late, I rarely have time to enjoy the day. I went to campus today because I had a meeting at 12:30, but as I was walking around, I realized, "Man, I should just skip class." I rarely skip class, if ever even. It was just so nice out today that I couldn't resist! So naturally, I've been in a great mood all day.
The other day, my friend Bao told me about this performance driving class that is being offered next semester. Apparently, it's a 1 hour class, and you get to drive BMWs. Of course I'm signed up!

random story

I called my mom on her cell phone yesterday, and much to my surprise, the old man answered. He never answers the phone, even when I call the house phone. If he does answer the phone, he immediately says, "Just a minute" and hands the phone to ma. When he picked up this time, I said, "Ohh, it's you!" He said, "What... I just never answered ma's cell phone before cause I didn't know how to answer it." Apparently, although members of my family have had Nokias for years, my dad had never figured out that the biggest button on those phones answers it. It's not like cell phones are the only thing that's a problem to him. The other day, I received an email that my mom forwarded to me. The message was, "Send this out to the girls" from my dad. Why does the old man struggle so hard with technology...

oh that's just bullshit

On my way to school today, I noticed my gas light went on, but I didn't have time to fill my tank. I saw that gas was $2.09/gallon, and I was thinking that was bullshit since gas was $1.59/gallon back in January. Anyway, I finally got a chance to fill up around 7:45pm today, and I went to the SAME gas station I passed earlier, and gas was $2.16/gallon!!! So figure that one out for me, how the gas prices went up 7 cents in 7 hours...

daylight savings

This daylight savings stuff is crap. I'm already far enough behind this weekend...

Anyway, as it turns out, I've had a lot of people close to me have unfortunate things happen to them. It's so weird that all these things just lined up and happened all at once. I want so badly to be of comfort and assistance to my friends who have hit a similar rut, but I feel like a hypocrite giving advice about things I'm trying to sort out and learn on my own. I know for me, I've had several weeks to let things settle, but it's not working out so well. I want to be optimistic, I want to think that time will fix everything, I want to think this is just a phase.

Some days, I feel like I've got the situation under control and that I'm going to be stronger because of all this. Then one little memory out of over a year of amazing memories will pop into my head, and the only thing I want is to feel it again. Sometimes, it's as simple as the times he would lean over and tell me he loves me at a crowded party.

I realized that what also makes this so hard is that I'm not sure what normal is right now. Should we be working on a friendship? Should I let all the "he said she said" take my former source of comfort away from me? Should I just let it all go?

Another thing that's hard is that I don't know what to do with myself. It used to be pretty set every weekend, and though that's what I loved at the time, it's probably best that I'm forced to be uncomfortable and awkward in new and different places. I'm probably going to go and do a lot of things out of character because there isn't a set schedule of what I'm going to do, and I won't sit at home waiting for things to come back to me.

I guess I should stop wasting time and tend to my lab notebook, lab report, and test that are all issues for tomorrow.

Cuppin' it

So at the very last minute, I decided to go with Ashley to the Cup cause I had never been. There's really nothing quite like staying at a plantation house then going to the Carolina Cup.

a true comedic genius

So sad...